unhappy planet (powersparkles) wrote in xiangoth,
unhappy planet


the last couple of months have been an interesting time for me. i mentioned in my previous post that i had a relapse with my psychosis around christmas-time and had to spend almost a week in the looney bin. as difficult and painful as life's been, i've had the opportunity to prayerfully reflect on the last 7 years of my life and have new insights.

being apart of this community has been an integral part of my spiritual life. i found it on a cold december day as i was drowning in guilt and confusion and torment about knowing what and who to believe. i'd had a conversion experience not much longer before joining, had some negative experiences in christianity's darkside of legalism and fear-based religion and here i found a light shining in dark and scary places.

i remember reading cory's essays about grace and felt lots of heavy burdens floating away. it was a breathe of fresh air to see christians that had pretty much the same struggles and questions i had and in our common searching we really did see moments of grace and peace shining through.

i'm in as much pain as i ever was and probably moreso... but my memories here are fondly reflected on and with them i'm finding healing.

  • Post a new comment


    default userpic

    Your reply will be screened

    Your IP address will be recorded 

    When you submit the form an invisible reCAPTCHA check will be performed.
    You must follow the Privacy Policy and Google Terms of use.